On being 40+ weeks pregnant...

So I'm still pregnant! It feels kind of surreal that I'm past my due date because of how little I mind it. You'd think I'd be dying for this baby to be out, but I'm kind of nonchalant about the whole thing. Don't get me wrong, I'd prefer for her to show herself already, but I'm not hating life or anything. I think my perspective changed a good bit when Sally got sick on Thursday night. Suffice it to say, the experience put everything in perspective. 

This week, we've just been kickin' it at home with Johnny. He's been working from home so he can help out with Sal since she's still sick and in need of some extra care. It's actually been a really sweet last few days with our little family. Sally has loved all the extra attention and doting on. And we've loved giving it to her. She was quite a trooper in the hospital, and it was hard to see our spunky little girl so sick. 

As far as how I'm feeling, I'm really starting to wonder if all the stress of Sally's hospital stay kind of stalled my going into labor. Either way, it's been really great that this little girl is waiting to show up because Sally could be quite a danger to her right now. The more days we have for Sally to no longer be contagious, the better. 

I have an appointment tomorrow morning, which is going to be full of scans and tests to make sure the baby is healthy. I'll be so happy when that's over with, and then we'll just take it one day at a time from there. I was 4cm and 80% this time last week, so it can't be too much longer, right?? Time will tell!

Hurry up and wait...

39 weeks! It feels so surreal to be at the very tail end of this pregnancy. I don't feel like I could have a baby at any moment. I feel surprisingly normal for how far along I am. I mean, sure, I'm quite uncomfortable, but I just don't feel that huge this time. I haven't had any swelling at all, which I think helps.

I think part of why I feel good is all the exercise I get out here in NYC. I walk on average a couple of miles a day. And some days I walk 3, 4, or 5 miles. Such is life in the city. So I think that's helped me stay pretty agile -- for a pregnant woman, at least. No waddling is happening, which is a cause for celebration. 

And now onto baby girl #2... I've written so much less about my pregnancy with her than with Sal. She's a very active little girl, even now. She's been head-down for weeks, but she twists her body this way and that all the time. I can feel pointy little corners of her sometimes, which I usually assume is the heel of her foot or maybe a knee. According to my doctor, this baby is going to be smaller than Sally. My doctor insists I'll likely not get a seven-pounder this time around. And it doesn't help that I'm measuring a couple of weeks behind. I do feel smaller this time, but I'm hoping it's just the position the baby's in. I'm mostly just getting excited to meet her. I love my life just as it is right now, and I'm not sure I'm ready for the change, but I also feel like my body is completely hers at this point. I'm ready to be able to use my body for more than just housing a baby. And although it may be rough in the beginning adjusting to a new baby, I know it will also be blissful and full of love. And as soon as she's here, we won't be able to imagine life without her. So I'm ready. 

I've been trying to savor every moment with Sal recently, giving her extra hugs and kisses and telling her how much I love her. She's an amazing little girl, and sometimes I'm so caught up in being her mom that I don't get to just sit back and realize that. So I've really loved the last couple of weeks of just focusing on how lucky I am to get to spend every day with my little two-year-old. I hope I can keep the perspective I currently have and just continue to savor my time being a mom to however many kids we have. 

So yes, it's a waiting game. Yes, I'm ready to be done being pregnant. Yes, I can't wait to meet this new baby. But in the meantime, I'm probably not as uncomfortable as I could be, and I'm really enjoying these last few days with my family of three. Here's to a relaxing Easter weekend!